It's sucking my energy, my creativity, my social life (you know, because I'm too drained to update my Facebook status forty thousand times a day). It's sucking my SOUL.
Those who have had mono before know exactly what I'm talking about. Those who haven't - don't come knocking on my door, because you don't want it, I can assure you.
But I don't want to whine about being sick today, this week, this month. I'll save that for another day and instead blather on about staying positive.
Something I've learned about myself in the last week and a half - I don't like to sit still. At all. I need to be busy, move my fingers, work my brain. I can barely even watch a half hour of TV before I have to pull out my notebook and outline scenes of my book, or grab my sketchbook and fill the pages with cupcakes and giraffes and anything else that pops into my head.
But now, I pretty much have to sit still, especially on the days when I'm too tired to function.
Why is this a positive thing? you may be asking yourself.
Here's why: Because my kids are LOVING it. Mommy sitting on the couch? In the day time? That NEVER happens! Mommy's always too busy!
Anyone who knows me already knows that watching kid's television, or playing with Barbies makes me want take a long walk off a short pier. But with my kids sick, and with myself being sick, my days are spent on the couch, cuddled up with them, watching endless amounts of PBS Kids (omg, Caillou is the dumbest show ever. Just sayin') or playing dolls in an effort to keep us all calm and quiet, hoping that tomorrow will be a better, more energized day.
- My house is insanely messy.
- Art has fallen by the wayside, just when I was excited to pick up my pencils and create again.
- I used to fill pages and pages of my manuscript a day, but now, just finishing a paragraph is cause for celebration.
- I'm too tired to READ, which is insane (Although I have read about 3 books this week, so maybe my definition of being "too tired to read" isn't the same as other people's definition of being too tired to read)
- I'm starting to smell funny.
But I will NOT stress out.
- Those colored pencils will be picked up another day.
- My book doesn't need to be finished this month, even if that is what I want.
- My house can be cleaned in a week from now (except the kitchen and bathroom. Ew).
- I don't need to read a book a day to survive. As it turns out, a person won't actually DIE if they don't read a book a day.
- According to my husband, I don't actually smell funny, especially as I'm still showering.