Thursday, August 19, 2010

Staying Positive

Wanna know what sucks? Mono, that's what.

It's sucking my energy, my creativity, my social life (you know, because I'm too drained to update my Facebook status forty thousand times a day). It's sucking my SOUL.

Those who have had mono before know exactly what I'm talking about. Those who haven't - don't come knocking on my door, because you don't want it, I can assure you.

But I don't want to whine about being sick today, this week, this month. I'll save that for another day and instead blather on about staying positive.

Something I've learned about myself in the last week and a half - I don't like to sit still. At all. I need to be busy, move my fingers, work my brain. I can barely even watch a half hour of TV before I have to pull out my notebook and outline scenes of my book, or grab my sketchbook and fill the pages with cupcakes and giraffes and anything else that pops into my head.

But now, I pretty much have to sit still, especially on the days when I'm too tired to function.

Why is this a positive thing? you may be asking yourself.

Here's why: Because my kids are LOVING it. Mommy sitting on the couch? In the day time? That NEVER happens! Mommy's always too busy!

Anyone who knows me already knows that watching kid's television, or playing with Barbies makes me want take a long walk off a short pier. But with my kids sick, and with myself being sick, my days are spent on the couch, cuddled up with them, watching endless amounts of PBS Kids (omg, Caillou is the dumbest show ever. Just sayin') or playing dolls in an effort to keep us all calm and quiet, hoping that tomorrow will be a better, more energized day.

  • My house is insanely messy.
  • Art has fallen by the wayside, just when I was excited to pick up my pencils and create again.
  • I used to fill pages and pages of my manuscript a day, but now, just finishing a paragraph is cause for celebration.
  • I'm too tired to READ, which is insane (Although I have read about 3 books this week, so maybe my definition of being "too tired to read" isn't the same as other people's definition of being too tired to read)
  • I'm starting to smell funny.

But I will NOT stress out.

I will stay positive because:
  • Those colored pencils will be picked up another day.
  • My book doesn't need to be finished this month, even if that is what I want.
  • My house can be cleaned in a week from now (except the kitchen and bathroom. Ew).
  • I don't need to read a book a day to survive. As it turns out, a person won't actually DIE if they don't read a book a day.
  • According to my husband, I don't actually smell funny, especially as I'm still showering.
Yes, I will stay positive, because my kids are loving all the mom-time they're getting, and I'm loving all the kid-time I'm getting, and that's what matters most at the moment, don't you think?



Heather Kelly said...

Yay Marissa! This post is just what I needed today. I don't have mono, but I've been really feeling run down from kid stuff and vacation and stress, and have secretly (don't laugh, J) been having a little pity party for myself. And here you are, sick, and not having a pity party. SO, I'm bucking up and letting go too.

Thanks! Maybe see you at the 9pm unplug?

Alyssa S. said...

EW! I am SO not kissing you. Because I was planning on it, you know :) Poor better.

Unknown said...

Heather - Oh yay, glad my post helped you! :) And YES, I will be there at 9. I may not accomplish more than a sentence, but I'll certainly try!

Alyssa - SMOOCH! :D

Leah said...

aw, at least you have a sweetie for a husband (note to mine, if you are reading, always say I smell good!)

Kearsie said...

You're sick?? Laaaaaame!!

If I were nearby, I would bring you:

*Mug Root Beer
*Haagen daz ice cream for awesome rootbeer floats
*A new toothbrush
*A new movie, maybe something like Sense and Sensibility, my fave movie to watch when I'm sick
*something knitted, because I too, suffer from the "can't sit and do nothing" syndrome
*and some hand sanitizer. Because it sounds like your family needs some germ eradification.

I miss you, my friend.

Jonathon Arntson said...

I love the art. I love your message. I love you.

Unknown said...

Leah - Haha, I bet you DO smell good :)

Kearsie - Oooooh, rootbeer floats, and knit thing, Sense & Sensibility... WHY ARE YOU NOT HERE WITH ME??


Jonathon Arntson said...

I love Caillou!! meanie

Jonathon Arntson said...

Also, I have laughed at H's 'don't laugh' thing like three times.

Unknown said...

Dude, Jon. Caillou sucks. He's a whiny little brat.

SewSweetStitches said...

Aww I'm so sorry you're sick! xoxo only not literally b/c I'm not catching your creeping crud! ;)

Oh Mandie said...

Booooooo Mono!!!

Just tell everyone that you got it from smooching Capt. Wentworth

Hugs to you!! (but definatly not kisses) Feel better soon Mama!

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